A random writeup...

I am in a mood to write sth.. i m feeling bad, bored, dull... no matter what i do...actually, its not due to what i do... its due to "people"... y cant everyone create an interest in your life... nevermind... i am finding ways to keep my life interesting... but nothing is working for me the same way as it was earlier... i am caught in the whirlpool of the daily ROUTINE... the same dull and monotonous routine.. no challenges... nothing interesting.. even though i have a lot of work to do.. still don't feel like doing it.... don't know what i want.. what i m waiting for...

anyways...

Random writeup...

Its hard to make a decision in life... you make decisions thinking that the decision is the right decision for you at that time.. BUT IS IT??? the decision that you make will give you momentary happiness.. and then what.. One day, out of blues, you realize that .. "You life is not the way you thought it would be" ...

i firmly believe in the quote .."Nothing lasts forever".. especially INTEREST in something... 2 things people crib about the most.. JOBS AND RELATIONSHIPS.. they will seem to be interesting in the start but then they both suck... (hard to figure out which will suck more in future) ...

i like to do "Interesting things" .. might be any thing.... whether its "right or wrong" .. its "good or bad" .. its "risky or safe".. I DON'T CARE.. i enjoy them and get a thrill while doing them which has by far been sucked by the routines we follow in our daily lives... i ll go after or keep on doing interesting things even if they give me just a pinch of interest or satisfaction.. (jobs... got bored.. leave it .. join another one.. interesting for 1 year/less or more.. then shift........... girls... have relationship till time i feel happy and content..).. LIFE WILL GO ON...

Due to my fickle minded nature, I was never able to stick to a particular thing in life.. Hobbies, girls, or jobs... for me, it had always been- "what can be more interesting, or what can be different"... BUT the question is - Do i repent?? thats the question that comes into my mind a lot of times .... How would it have been if i would have done that ... if i would have taken that decision.. but does it affect me?? I don't think so.. and if anyone will sit alone and think about the same thing that i do sometimes.. i think he will get the same answer... "You are the way you are just because of the decisions you took in your life... and every time you take a decision.. it makes you smarter... even if you take a stupid decision and screw up in something... you will make sure that you wont repeat that again (some people still do...lolz)"

Anyways...

The main thing is that you enter into something at your own will.. (some people don't even get a choice) you think its interesting and you like it in the beginning... but later on .. as time passes by... the same dull and monotonous life creeps over you... you realize that the things won't be lined up in the same way for you as you would have expected... and to cope up with the circumstances.. you change yourself.... you COMPROMISE!!! at every step... every decision.... and you end up where you never would have thought you ever will...